Time Apart in Florida

A month of separation will be good for us and we will have lots of time to reflect on ourselves and our future together without being fully emeshed in us. It only took a week for me to realize that I seriously hate being away from him. I'm over this. Andrew and I have been talking on the phone every night. Sometimes we talk for up to 5 hours and many nights we decide to go to bed because the phone runs out of batteries. It's an interesting way to have a relationship. We have a lot of time to really focus on talking about us instead of any physical affection getting in the way. The lack of physical affection is hard to endure. Once he stopped me in the middle of my comment and told me that he just really wanted to sit next to me and hold my hand. Adorable! I wrote him a 4 page letter about our relationship and wrote about the aspects of it that are needed for a strong marriage. It is his prized possession. He wrote a letter back to me and I cried because it was so so sweet and beautiful. We talk openly about marrying each other now that I have a perspective that he is definitely my future. We both told each other that we want to marry each other. We both got that joy that you get from the Holy Ghost. It was so amazing to hear those words from his lips. I wanted to cry. One night we did a scavenger hunt over the phone. We went around our neighborhoods and took pictures with different things like a flag, pool, flowers, soccer ball, stop sign, and other random funny things we might find. We then sent them to each other. It was a creative way for us to be on a date. Andrew photoshopped us together in the above image.

I Could Run A Marathon

Monday, April 20- We went to Debbie’s to look at old family pictures. I finally saw a picture of Andrew’s dad. Afterwards I was debating if I should wait to tell Andrew about my experience the previous night but I decided that I love telling him everything and there was no reason not to. Plus it was really exciting news. I read my journal entry to him and started crying which meant that the Holy Ghost was reaffirming it to me. He was so amazed that I actually said those things and had that experience. He was the happiest he has ever been and felt like he could run a marathon. He wrote a song for me called “Tell Me.” I definitely told him my feelings that night.

There Is Nothing To Fear, I Should Marry Him

Sunday, April 19- We ate dinner and went to a fireside with Debbie and her friend Milt. At the end of the night Andrew and I didn’t want to say goodnight. I told him that I might just have to marry him to fix my addiction to him. He told me that he belongs to me for as long as I want him to, and then a little more because he would keep chasing me. After he told me that I’m everything to him, I kinda wanted to cry because I realized that i’m in deep. We both blamed each other for making us fall in love with each other. We were just frustrated that soon we would be apart for a month and that we can’t express how we really feel about each other enough. Like there isn’t a way to say I love you so freakin much that it kinda hurts or just express that crazy amount of joy he brings me and how much I am so attracted to him. After we were finally able to say goodnight. I went back into my living room and cried because I love him so much and I’m so scared about what to do about it and what my future holds. I’m scared that God may have another person for me to marry and that he would tell me that I’d have to break up with Andrew some day. I’m also scared that since I have nothing to compare this to and neither of us has ever been in love with someone so much, that maybe I’m exaggerating my feelings that I have for him. I have been praying the last couple of weeks to know when I will need to get an answer or ask about marrying him. I felt like that was a good time because I was caught up in doubt but joy and I felt like I could honestly ask God and get an unbiased response. All of a sudden my fear turned into overwhelming joy in which I cried out of happiness. I was told that he possesses every important aspect and then more that I have been searching for in a husband so why go looking for something that I already have. I also felt that our love is the real deal and not everyone can find something like what we have. We are two amazing people who would cherish each other for eternity and could make a good marital relationship work. There is nothing to fear and I should marry him. I was blown away and I couldn’t stop crying because I kept saying out loud that I love him so much. I was grateful for such a clear response. I had never, before this semester, thought I would see myself in this situation and feeling such strong feelings for a guy. Whoever knew that giving your heart to someone and wanting them to know everything about you and thinking about each other constantly would actually happen to me. This is the biggest decision of my life and it is so scary but extremely wonderful.

70 HOURS!!!!?

April 12-18- We spent about 70 hours together because it was the end of the semester and we had reading days and finals. We did lots of studying, watched Mystery Men, practiced guitar, watched Nacho Libre, played on the playground, layed in the sun at the park. I got freckly and he got tan. Andrew failed at making grits and we were just really sick with the cold together and coughed out our lungs. We spent some time with Stacie and Seth, the engaged couple. Being engaged looks fun. Do you wanna get eng.... uh.

I Don't Want To Be Away From You For A Month

Sunday April 12- We visited Jeff’s family. Madison sang “Me Like To See The Temple” and we played a board game with them. I realized that I would be apart from my best friend for a month. I am addicted to him and spend so much time with him. I just feel like I’ve found this person that I can’t get enough of and who makes me happy in every way. I feel safe and I feel like I can completely trust him.

Sometimes We Kiss A Lot

Wednesday, April 8- We went to a movie and then spent hours in the dugout and rain. I then broke into my apt through the window because I forgot my key.
Friday, April 10- We did some shopping and went to dinner at Costa Vida. Andrew gave me the eyes and I decided that I would skip out on the sleepover I was supposed to go to and spend time with him. He taught me “Let it Be” on the guitar and we did lots of kissing. I really like kissing and that’s what I wanted when I ditched the girl fest.

Andrew Becomes A Rodgers

Saturday, April 4- We got up early and everyone drove to St. George. I knew that I wouldn’t want this weekend to end. I was so excited for Josh’s family and my Dad to meet Andrew in person so that they could see what he is like, how he treats me and I feel about him through the happiness he brings me and the love in my eyes. We watched Conference, celebrated my birthday, and Andrew played the piano as we sang. I was glad they could see how talented he is. It was so fantastic to introduce him to a different and very important part of my life. Everyone absolutely loved him and he was surprised how well he got along with them. He really connected and they were so open and warm to him. I’m sure it was weird for my parents to see a boy show affection like that to me. He just fit in so well and it was the best weekend ever because I was with so many people that I love.

Everybody Do The Willow Dance

Friday, April 3- We had lunch with Andrew’s mom and mine. We went to Andrew’s concert at the Velour. He was so great and afterwards we watched “Willow.” I think we really knew that we were made for each other when we quoted that movie to each other. Kaya!!! Dadda, Dadda!!! Na Na Na Na Na.

The Beginning Of The Best Weekend Ever

Thursday, April 2- Mom and Meredith came into town and Poopa and Andrew became best friends. Meredith sang for us and blew him away. Andrew played “Believe” for Meredith and she started crying because it was so beautiful and she was overwhelmed with the spirit when she saw us interacting together. We ate food under a teepee. I spilled water ALL over me and Andrew and I were finally able to make out in the rain. So fun.

Snow White's 21st

Monday, March 30- It was my birthday so Andrew made me breakfast and I went to dinner with his sister and her kids. We sat and watched the sunset on the hill and he told me about a really cool dream. He gave me a picture of us, massages, and flowers.

Meeting His Family

Sunday, March 29- I went to Daddo’s birthday party and met a lot of extended family and his brother’s family. Everyone was so welcoming and enjoyable. He got lots of thumbs up and people commented on how gorgeous I am and that I seemed wonderful. It was so fun.

I seriously just got weak in the knees and fell to the ground

Wednesday, March 25- We went and saw “Marley and Me” and loved the healthy relationship portrayed in it. We attended Jes’s birthday party and had a nutella fight and lots of fun. Grits, sand, and gazebo moments were had in abundance.
Thursday, March 26- He wrote me a 4 page letter of amazingness in which he told me tons of great things about me.
Friday, March 27- We went swimming at the rec center and tried kissing under water, not that easy. We babysat, had a roommate date and then spent ALL night together.

Love Is Essential For Exaltation

Sunday, March 22- We went to the Draper Temple dedication and ate dinner with Stacie and Seth. We played games with them, learned from them how to make out silently, and made up songs on the guitar. I never expected our relationship to turn into this so naturally. We are completely in love with each other and I believe it consumes our souls. I am so glad that God has allowed me to experience such a deep relationship because it really is showing me a foundation for a family and the rest of my life. I have been put on this earth to find someone who completes me and someone who will take a journey with me through life and be there every step of the way. Love between a man and woman is essential for a temple marriage which is necessary for me to reach the celestial kingdom. I am now discovering that part of what will be necessary for my future and it just reaffirms my testimony that God has a well designed plan for all of us. Our journeys will be different but our goal is the same.

You Have All The Qualities I Look For

Saturday, March 21- We went up in the mountains and it was so peaceful. We watched home videos that Andrew made in high school. He played “Believe” on the piano and I was super impressed because it was so beautiful and he wrote it in high school. I had to hold myself back because his mom was in the next room. On the way home I told him that even though we don’t talk about marriage, I wanted him to know that he has all the qualities that I look for in a husband and that I would marry him, I just want it to be God’s will and it isn’t time for me to ask that yet.

Serenading On Campus

Thursday March 19- I went to Andrew’s songwriting showcase and he was the best one there. Afterwards he serenaded me on the guitar on campus. I like his music so much and I can’t resist him when he plays and sings to me.
Friday, March 20- Andrew gave me “A Heart Like His” so that we could read it together and learn how to better open our hearts and have more love for people.

Dancing Fiends

Saturday, March 14- We participated in Dancesport and Andrew went really far in Cha Cha and I did well dancing up a level in Waltz. Andrew found that he really enjoys dancing and it was a good bonding experience. We went to lunch and had amazing Tostada pizza at CPK. We watched the professionals dance Latin. Hott and so unbelievable!!!

Tu Es l'Amour De Ma Vie

Friday, March 13- I made grits (he actually loves them), eggs, and rolls for dinner and then we watched Grey’s Anatomy. Andrew got hooked on the show. We went to the hot springs with friends. I taught him some French phrases and was very surprised that he had such a good accent.

Talkin With Mama

Tuesday, March 10- Andrew talked to my Mom for almost 3 hours. He couldn’t handle all of the good things she said about me and he said that he fell in even deeper love with me. It was neat for him to hear from my biggest fan about who I am and where I come from.

Ashley I Did Something Really Bad

Monday, March 9- Andrew broke into my e-mail and read my e-mail about marriage from Joy. He confessed it to me right after he did it because he felt so guilty. I would have probably done the same thing so I wasn’t bothered by it, plus he was so cute when he was apologizing. He showed up at my doorstep while it was snowing and he was holding 3 beautiful roses (2 white and 1 red). That was the first time I had ever received flowers from a guy.

Los Hormones

Saturday, March 8- We went to the Hunger Banquet and ate a meal for the higher income population. We shared our food with the poor, secret mission style. I was approached by a little Peruvian man who wanted to take my picture because I am so beautiful and he is a photographer. It was hilarious and uncomfortable since it was in broken English and he wouldn’t stop flirting. Later, we acted like we were on an awkward first date but we were really attracted to each other. We love role playing.

We Would Make Really Attractive Babies

Friday, March 7- We went with some of my friends to the Draper Temple open house. I loved the Celestial room and sealing room. I thought a lot about my future wedding in the temple. It was very romantic because of the eternal ordinances done in the sealing room. Andrew asked me if I ever thought about how we would make really attractive babies. I had thought about it a while ago but it was a new thought to him. We made up a really long random story and he told me all the amazing qualities I have and blew me away with how romantic it was. He is so good to me.

Temple Work

Thursday, March 5- Andrew talked with my mom for a long time and they weren’t even done. He enjoyed it so much and wants to do it more often. We went to the temple and it was really great to have him confirm and baptize me. Going to the house of the Lord, heaven on earth, with the man I love was just so marvelous. That’s only a taste of what it will be like when I marry there. We ate dinner in the temple cafeteria and watched “Enchanted.” He told me that God gave him the ability to feel extremely strongly about things and so when he says he loves me, he loves me and then a whole lot more. He sweeps me off my feet and I don’t know what to do with myself. I wish I could spend 24/7 with him because I can never get enough. I thank God daily for my relationship with him. Our relationship brings us closer to Christ through the way we serve each other, treat others and cherish and build each other up. We want to do and be better and more like our Savior. It is really healthy and definitely marriage material. :)

Some Important Questions

Tuesday, March 3- I called my parents to tell them about the words Andrew and I shared. Dad realized it was getting serious and asked me important questions like “Does he treat you well?” and “What is his relationship with Christ?” I started tearing up when I answered yes to if he treats me well and then got teary eyed when I told him that Andrew’s relationship with Christ is the most important relationship he has and I just know that he leads a Christ-centered life and always will. He tells me all the time that he wants to be more like Christ and that is so admirable because he follows that up with actions that show he believes and is striving to be more like him.

Is It True What Haylee Asked About Us?

Monday, March 2- We went to the bishop’s house for FHE. Andrew was sick and warned me to allow me to make informed decisions about my kissing habits. I decided to not get sick and not kiss him. We befriended the bishop’s granddaughter. During the activity Andrew moved away from us and right away in her cute little 6 year old voice asked me, “Are you guys in love?” I giggled and said “I think so.” I told Andrew and we decided it was the cutest thing ever. I teased him later by modifying a Spongebob quote and asked him “Is it true what Haylee asked about us?” He was scared to say those words and he said, “I wish there was a way to say I really, really like you a whole lot.” I said, “ but there is, it’s…” and then he commanded me not to say it. The weather beckoned us outside and we played the chapstick wrestling game, which I won. As we lyed on the grass in each other’s arms, he turned to me and told me that he loves me. I took a moment to soak it in and then looked into his eyes and told him that I love him too. Obviously after he tells me for the first time that he loves me I’m not going to restrain myself from kissing him just because I’m afraid of a little cold. He made me hot chocolate and gave me a foot massage. Yeah, that’s why I love him. I am so excited that we can say that now because I fully feel it it and want the whole world to know. It is a scary thought to know that we love each other because it is a serious and deep new feeling that is so wonderful and thrilling. Love makes it all so worth it and it can overcome any fear it may bring.

Sand Moments And Tres Leches

Saturday, Feb. 28- We went to the canyon and read scriptures. We started the joke about sand moments where we hug and imagine warm weather. We finally ate Costa Vida and had tres leches which was almost eaten by some crazy lady. We watched “Ever After” in the fort that Seth and Stacie made. I keep on expecting Andrew to say or do something that would annoy me, but everything he says is so funny or just right and he is so in tune with me.

Dancing And Kissing On The Side Of The Road

Friday, Feb. 27- We went to watch Millie at the directors house. On the way, we parked on the side of the road and danced outside to “Quando.” It was so romantic and cars honked at us as we kissed. He said my kisses are so tender and sweet.

A Hot And Successful Boyfriend

Tuesday, Feb. 24- I had a soccer game tonight and so earlier Andrew texted me and asked me “What is the first thing you crave after a hot and successful soccer game?” I replied, “A hot and successful boyfriend.” Well that’s what I got. We were saying goodbye afterwards and I was all nasty from the game. He is so attracted to me like that because he finally kissed me. I was so unprepared because I was not looking exceptionally enticing and we weren’t talking about anything romantic. It was about 3 kisses and then he smiled, pulled back and walked away. I yelled “Andrew” in a needy, don’t leave me voice as I reached out for him. Afterwards I was on cloud nine and now I can kiss him whenever I want.

I Think We're Falling In Love

Sunday, Feb. 22- We walked home from dessert night and ended up evaluating our week and a half of dating. We talked about how having a boyfriend is better than I ever imagined and it’s easier than I thought. When he holds me it’s like we are the only two people in the world. He told me that he is scared because he is getting feelings of love for me and I told him that it was okay for him to feel that way because those feelings were developing for me (even though I knew I loved him). We talked outside on a blanket for a while and then I showed him Chet’s blog. It was so wonderful to share that part of my life with him.

Discovery Of The Cobra Stare

Saturday, Feb. 21- We played soccer and I won after stabbing myself on the cable box and cheating by using the Cobra Stare. Andrew showed me his mom’s backyard of enormousness where Frank is buried, plus the “pool closet.” Tonight was the concert and EP release for Imagine Dragons. While we were together before the show I thought to myself, “Yeah I’m dating the really hott guitarist of a cool band.” The show was so energized and I winked at Andrew while he was playing.

Kiss Me Already

Friday, Feb 20- We went on a western date and dressed up. We rented High Noon and wasted 2 hours with crazy Joe. I taught him how to properly poor soda. We met up with the cousins at Subzero and ended up road tripping to the one in Pleasant Grove. I realized that we touch each other a lot. He teased me when we said goodnight because his lips were so close to mine but he didn’t kiss me. I think our bottom lips grazed. I laughed out loud, it was so ridiculous but I covered it up.

Sunshine In The Park

Thursday, Feb. 21- Today was finally warmer and so we did homework on a blanket in the park. We talked about my parents younger life, conversion and marriage.

Let Me Teach You The Waltz

Wednesday, Feb 18- We went to the Social Dance lab and had so much fun dancing with each other. I was impressed that Andrew was pretty good. We feel like we’ve known each other for a long time and things just click. I love everything about him.

Ward Visit

Tuesday, Feb. 17- We did our first ward visit to fellow ward members. We just stopped by and chatted with some people and they really appreciated our visit. We are so comfortable with each other and so our interactions with others are really fun and we entertain them.

Why Did God Make You So Beautiful

Monday, Feb. 16- Andrew played me all of his songs on the guitar and drew a good portrait of me in his journal. He asked me if I ever wondered why God made me so beautiful. I laughed but he was really serious.

Valentine's Day

Saturday, Feb. 14- It was Valentines Day so we exchanged love notes. His was so complimentary and made my heart melt. Mine was tender since it was written before I disclosed my feelings for him. He gave me a tour of his mom’s house, the home he grew up in. Afterwards we played soccer in the gym of the church he grew up going to. I kicked his trash like always. I was surprised how good he was. We climbed up my hill behind the FLSR in a foot of snow. My favorite moment of the night was when I asked him what song he sings when he has bad thoughts or feelings. He started singing “I Love to See the Temple,” which is what I sing. I was overwhelmed that all of the choices of songs, we had the same one. So I pushed him away which caused him to fall a bit down the hill and into the snow. It was just a cute, tender, Ashley went crazy for a second, moment. We went back to his mom’s house and I was able to talk to her for a bit. We then watched “Spongebob Squarepants the movie.”

You Are The Most Beautiful Girl In The World

Friday, Feb 13- We went on a couples date to a chinese buffet. Andrew didn’t believe that I’ve never had a boyfriend before since I am too good at it. I love that he gets along with others so well and loves meeting new people. We watched “Across the Universe” and cuddled. I love that he tries to listen only to wholesome music and watch uplifting movies. He told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the world and kissed my cheeks really close to my lips (tease).

A Boy Is Holding My Hand?

Thursday, Feb. 12- We saw each other after being left to our thoughts and prayers for a day. We came back together and told each other that we were thinking about each other all day. We went to the MDT showcase. I told him how I got a clear answer right away that dating him was a good decision. During the show he held my hand and caressed my arm. It’s all finally starting and a relationship is happening for me. I am sooo excited. We went to my apt and he told me that he prayed about it a million times and finally got a confirmation that it was right. He just wants to take it slow because he doesn’t want to mess anything up. I am totally fine with that because this was all new to me.

Jjjjjjjjjjjeeeeeee ttttt'aaaaiiiiimmmmeeee!!!!!!

Wednesday, Feb. 12- I invited Andrew to see a crazy creepy French film with me. Afterwards I taught him some of the Paso Doble and he taught me the Cha Cha. We were freezing but he realized that actually dancing with me was the most enjoyable thing ever and so we didn’t want to separate. I was going to leave and he decided to follow his intuition and repeatedly asked me what was wrong. I told him that I have really strong feelings for him and like him a lot which means that I would want to date him. I just didn’t know how he really felt about me and where he was with all of this. He said “Ashley, I was not ready to talk about this yet.” Well that’s what you get for asking me to tell you what’s on my mind. He said “You really don’t know how I feel about you? I’m like an open book.” I guess I knew that but I needed to hear it from him. He says he likes me sooo much and has since he first met me. Same for me. He doesn’t want us to break up and not be friends anymore, but I told him that he can’t decide already how it will end, if it does. He is so optimistic about this but he just likes the way our relationship is right now. I could not just keep our relationship at friendship. We held each other a lot and it was really hard to sort through our thoughts. We decided to pray a bunch about it. I started to leave feeling really confused about the whole conversation. He pulled me back and kissed my cheeks, which was so comforting. I used his advice and was honest about my feelings. He couldn’t penalize me for using his own strategy.

Frosty Fight?... You Know Me Too Well

Tuesday, Feb. 10- I had been feeling weighed down with some worries in life and he knew that I wasn’t feeling like my happy, problemless self. He took me with him to DI and we were a bit more touchy than usual. On the way home he put his hand on my knee while I was telling my sister on the phone about a really personal, tender moment from my past. I put my hand on top of his and we left it like that for a while. He said "chocolate makes everything better, right?" He bought us a frosty and I started a frosty fight. I kissed his cheek goodbye even though we didn’t want to separate.

I Think That I Could Be In Love With Him

Monday, Feb. 9- For FHE I spent a long time writing him a Valentine. Really thinking about how to tell him how I feel about him made me reflect and I realized that I care about him so much and cannot keep it in any longer. I think that I could be in love with him.

Hippopotamus, Peanut Butter And Jelly

Sunday, Feb. 8- He told me his life story complete with pictures. He went on so many dates and has liked so many different girls. He experimented with different fashions and hair styles. We sometimes make up crazy stories and get our imagination flowing. We like to pretend (Let’s pretend that…..).

Oh No, And She Plays Soccer

Saturday, Feb. 7- Andrew and the cousins came to my soccer game in their PJs and crazy hats. I scored a goal and help us win. He knew that if he went that he would not be able to deny the crazy attraction he had for me, and he was right. He kept on coming over throughout the evening. One time he got really close to my lips and I had to calm myself down because I wanted to kiss him so much.

Was That Cuddling?

Friday, Feb. 6- He stroked my hair with my head in his lap and he realized that my hair is undeniably and enticingly gorgeous. We were in a fort at my house and he made a comment to everyone about cuddling. I asked him if that was an invitation and we semi cuddle. We just were too nervous to make it real and didn't know if the other one was joking. It was awkward.

Can We Be Really, Really, Good Friends

Thursday, Feb. 5- Andrew asked me to go with him to Macey’s Little Theater where they show you how to cook a meal and then feed it to you. I got in the car and he had “Quando” playing. He acted like it was coincidental. We were definitely on a date and asked the couple at our table all about their relationship. We scooted closer and they commented on it. I just said that there is a mutual attraction. I always caught Andrew staring at me. He asked me if we can be really, really good friends and I said sure. I was disappointed and thought that he was saying that he just isn’t ready to be more than that and friendship is all he is looking for. I had to hug and smell him sometimes. We bought a donut and muffin and ate them on top of his car.

Mock Competition But There Is Nothing Fake About It

Thursday, Feb. 4- I danced the waltz and the Paso Doble. Andrew had never been more attracted to me. He said he was really intimidated by me and wouldn’t be contacting me for a couple of days. People started asking me if we were dating because we acted like we were.

You Are My Best Guy Friend

Sunday, Feb. 1- We hung out with my friends and helped them make dinner. He asked me who my best guy friend was and after I reflected for a bit I told him that it's him.
Tuesday, Feb. 3- We discover that he likes Skim Milk and I like whole which starts a heated flirtatious argument in which he is backed against the wall. I really wanted to kiss him. I had to leave him to go somewhere and right after I left he called me about my dance competition. I told him that I already invited him and I was being rude to him. He told me that was not necessary. I said sorry but if I am nice to you then I will want to be with you.

We Are Obsessed With You

Saturday, Jan. 31- I had a tea party with Summer and was spending lots of time with her. Earlier I told her about my strong like for Andrew and she squealed with absolute delight. That night they woke me up at 1:30 and told me to come to the door to see them. Andrew had shaved off the ‘stache and they wanted to show me, plus they admitted that they were obsessed with me.

The First Time I Made Dinner

Monday, Jan. 26- He walked me home from class and I warmed his hand by clasping mine over his. I told him I owed him a dinner so I invited him over. We cooked chicken and pesto with corn. I noticed that I love the way he dresses: that day he wore a collared shirt under a sweater and a corduroy jacket with some jeans and his professor glasses. It’s hard for me to take it slow because I know that I want to date him, but friendship is a good basis, I’ve waited such a long time, what’s a little more?, and I need him to be ready to date again.

My Life Story Complete With Pictures

Sunday, Jan. 25- We walked home from church in the rain. We spent hours talking about deep things, especially my family. I showed him my picture album and about my life. We decided that we want to spend lots of time together and see each other often because it is the best part of our day. He took my ring so that he could think of me every time he saw it.

Oh my hot plaid pants, suspenders, and tap shoes

Thursday, Jan. 22- I was very impressed by his performance in “Thoroughly Modern Millie” and brought him a flower. Afterwards I got some food with him and Shanda. I asked her to confirm how I perceived his actions and regards. She said that he is in love with me and every time he looked at me she thought he was going to kiss me. I was glad to know that I wasn’t imagining that he looked at me so intensely and full of adoration.

Spontaneity and Serendipity

Tuesday, Jan. 20- After devotional we rolled down the hill on campus and landed in snow.
Wednesday, Jan. 21- He invited me to apartment movie night where we watched “Karate Kid” with the guys. Every comment he made about the movie was so funny and not forced. I realized that our humor is very similar. I gave him a back scratch/massage. He got the feeling that I’m probably into him and I got the same vibe when he didn’t really want to say good night. That night I couldn’t sleep because I felt like this was definitely going somewhere and a relationship with him was going to happen soon.

No More La La Land

Monday, Jan. 19- I had lunch with the cousins and gave him a back scratch. We watched “Hook” with Aurora and Anna. I was taken out of La La Land and realized that he still has feelings for her. Stacie gave him a serious speech about how he needs to move on. I felt like he was playing with my heart even though there was no doubt that he is enchanted by me. It remained complicated but I reminded myself that he makes me feel like I can be my real self and I have so much fun with him because he makes me so happy.

Grandma and Daddo's

Sunday, January 18- Andrew called me and acted like he was calling around to give a survey about mustaches in America. He helped me achieve some things I’ve wanted to do before I die: skydiving, marriage (yes he did propose), babies (oh wait, he said he couldn’t help me with that). If we had kids they would all be “A” name babies anyway. On the elevator in the hospital, he thought about kissing me and I put my head on his shoulder in the hospital room. I drove us to Grandma and Daddo’s house. Everyone was so close and I realized that the cousins are best friends and I love being with them because they are so crazy and fun. He stroked my hair a bit and told me that it is absolutely beautiful and I can’t cut it. We played footsy and played his guitar as a drum. We sang “Quando, Quando, Quando” in the car. That’s when I fell really hard. That was right after he reminded me by quizzing me to know if I remember the first thing he told me (that I am beautiful). Little did he know that I have a memory like a steel trap.

CES Fireside

Sunday, Jan. 11- I asked Andrew to come with me to the CES Fireside given by President Monson. We talked about my family and my love for sports. Andrew seemed like he was going to give up on love for a while, which I quickly discouraged. I wore some touch me material and we start openly flirting more.

A Hard Winter Break

I came back from winter break and found out that he and his girlfriend broke up. He was not doing too well. I was so sad that he had to go through this but I saw that he is going to need a friend now more than ever and decided that I can break down any barriers that I put around him when he had a girlfriend. I became excited about the future possibilities for us.

Nights Of Music

Week of Dec. 7th- At church he told me that he really wanted to spend more time with me. I told him that I would love to but only if he has time (he did have a girlfriend). He said that he always has time for me. We exchange numbers and I realized that he really likes me because of the way he was looking at me and hugged me.
We listened to his friend play in Battle of the Bands at the Velour. We talked about his relationship issues, what I look for in a future husband and laughed at my socks/flip-flop combo in the winter. I think he is so unique, listens well, and appreciates communication.
I went to Battle of the Bands and Imagine Dragons won. I met his mom and he told her that I am a lot like his girlfriend. More confusion.

Temple Square

Monday, Dec. 1- The ward had an FHE to see the lights at temple square. I kept Andrew from eating too many donuts (true friendship). We walked and played around together. He confused me because he had a girlfriend but was just so interested in getting to know me and loves being with me.

We'll Be Good Friends

Sunday, Nov. 2- I told Andrew about an experience where I took his challenge to be honest about my feelings by telling a guy that I didn’t want to date him. He was really supportive and proud of my actions. I realized that he is going to become a good friend who can help me learn a lot about communicating with guys and people in general.

Crocodile Tears

Saturday, Nov. 1- I went to see Imagine Dragons perform and found out that he now has a girlfriend. He is so in love with her and it seems his future is set on her. I don’t cry that often but I went home and cried because I was frustrated with never having a relationship work out for me.

I Really Want To Get To Know You

Monday, Oct 27- After carving pumpkins for FHE he pulled me over to the couch and wanted to know all about me. We talked about how it is important to tell people how you feel about them because what’s the worst thing that could happen? We stumble upon an open mic night in an apartment. It was so easy to talk to him and we decided that we definitely want to continue this friendship. I went inside and my roommate asked if I have a crush on him. The answer is definitely yes!

You Are Beautiful

Sunday, Oct. 26- Andrew pulled me aside at dessert night and said, “I hope this doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable, but I just wanted to tell you that you are beautiful.” I was so impressed and shocked that he would say that. No one is that honest with girls these days. I told him that he is very attractive also and that he has beautiful eyes. I then asked him to hug me.

A Map To My Heart

Wednesday, Sept. 24- I went to talk to Aurora and Summer in their apt. Andrew was playing his guitar and I asked him about what the map on it is to. He said that it’s a map to his heart (he never gave that answer before). He melted my heart with his falsetto and gorgeous voice but I acted like I wasn't really paying attention and kept talking to the girls. I told the French house girls about him.

Sacrament Meetings

Sept. 7, 2008- Andrew played a gorgeous hymn arrangement on the piano in sacrament meeting and I talked to him for the first time and told him it was beautiful and that he is really talented. He stared into my soul. No, seriously! I decided that he is the most attractive guy in the ward and I will definitely keep my eye on him.
Sept. 21- I gave a talk in sacrament and Andrew was the only person who laughs out loud at my joke. On the walk home he told me that he learned a lot of great stuff from it, even though it was on Visiting Teaching.